Tonight was a night that I want to remember.

Today is Kuba's 19th birthday. Birthdays have become things that I dread a little bit- because I always feel like I can't mess them up, I hold in any bad feelings, which inevitably break out of me.. on the birthday. Once  again it was like that this year.. I went to work this morning, and afterwards met Kuba and other people but I was feeling very very down, and uncomfortable around everyone.. and jsut pretty much horrible. So eventually I ended up crying and having a little talk with Kuba and afterwards I started to feel better..

Today is the 21st of June, which means its the Fete de la Musique, a day that in Berlin means music everywhere all day! So we started the day watching a band of our friends', then we went to see Alle Farben, which was very fun, unexpectedly. It was at this point that I started to feel actually happy.. this night really gave me hope for getting over my problems. We danced. It was freeing..

Later we went to buy some alcohol and then went to an open air rave by the Schillingbr├╝cke, and it was very fun too! I can't believe how not sad I was today. Well it started out really bad but ended so well. We saw Theo from Onkel Berni and also the singer from Frittenbude at the rave :D Oh and I also saw someone take cocaine for the first time :O

So that's all,

Happy Birthday to my wonderful Kuba, without whom I would be a little curled up Sony in the middle of the street, alone and sad forever.


Lavender Fields

Today Jakob and I went to the Mauerpark and sat in the lavender for a while. The weather was perfect and it was so beautiful! It was really nice to get outside for a little while. I've been so busy with babysitting that I haven't had any time to just relax. On Friday I went horsebackriding again, which was amazing. It's so much fun and I'm sooo sore! But I've been working out every day while I babysit so it feels good to do a different kind of exercise. I've been doing this for about a week and a half and I already feel so much stronger. It's really fun actually, which is weird because I've always really hated exercising. 

Last weekend I went to Jakob's Abiturball (which is like a big event celebrating the graduates of his school), so hopefully I can upload some pictures from that soon, I just have to get them from his mom ^__^

I'm so excited for all of the things that are coming up! I've literally had dreams about the Fusion Festival every night for the last few days. I can't wait!! It's going to be pretty insane- I'll be at the Fusion from Wednesday the 27th to Monday the 2nd, then I'll be leaving on the 4th for Sweden.

I hope you have been having a nice June, and I hope you have some exciting summer plans too! 
Here's my outfit from today on Lookbook: http://lookbook.nu/look/3631179-Lavender

Top: Vero Moda
Shorts: Sheinside
Shoes: Paul Green


Thoughts on models and fashion

I was just looking through some of the Fall 2012 collections on Style.com, and I was just really struck by how there is so little variety in the models that they use. Yes I know everyone knows that models are skinny. But seriously, how hard can it be as a designer to just choose even some models that are not so tiny? I am not someone who would judge a person based on how skinny they are. But as one of the millions of people who have been negatively effected by these standards of beauty.. I can just say that I promise you, when I am a fashion designer, I will not stick to the normal model type, but use real girls who I find interesting and unique and beautiful in their own unique way. It should be such an easy thing, for designers to just make a little change to make such a big difference, but no.. it just doesn't really happen. And I think that's really sad.


Enchanted Forest

As you can see I got my Enchanted Forest leggings! They are soooo pretty, I can't wait to try out tons and tons of outfits with them. I feel like a forest fairy :D What do you think?! I'm so happy I got them, because they are selling out super fast.. and I really wanted to get some more interesting, special pieces for my wardrobe. Here it is on Lookbook: http://lookbook.nu/look/3591785-Enchanted-Forest

Top- Ebay
Leggings- Lovelysally
Shoes- Vagabond






No, I don't have any news. I babysat for 7 hours today and came home and felt like dressing up and taking pictures!  I really like how these socks look with those shoes... its so warrior princessy :D See this look on Lookbook here: http://lookbook.nu/look/3574147-Disparition

Tunic: Urban Outfitters (I am not buying from them anymore btw)
Harness: ASOS
Socks: ???
Shoes: Vagabond


Summer Preparations

 I just bought a bunch of clothes for summer/starting at Lette Verein, because I feel like if I'm studying fashion design I should probably get some cool clothes... haha. I also want to start just doing more interesting things with how I look on a regular basis.

So anyways I'll be doing a bunch of posts as I get my new things in the mail.. this sweater is one of the things I bought, its really light and soft and wonderful and perfect. You can see this look here: http://lookbook.nu/look/3564357-Esocalling

Top: Vero Moda (from ASOS)
Shorts: fleamarket (American Apparel)
Shoes: Vagabond
Forehead lace thingy: Etsy